well all i know is that i'm all dark inside. there's no hope for me. all i wanna do is now to enjoy life like never before. i don't wanna miss this while i'm still young. i wanna be able to achieve something before i turn 20 so i can tell my younger generation what i've been up to as a teenager rite up to young adulthood, which is supposedly the best times of our lives. and hopefully, they will be able to learn a thing or two from me.
i still have faith. i am still aware of my religion. i am not yet astray. just not very deeply involved. but i can assure you, i will still turn back to GOD if i need to have faith in something. all the drinking and involvements are purely a mixed up emotional me. which i now have learned to control it better. forgive me GOD, if i have wronged.
i need to have a lifestyle. i need to have some fun to forget all the crap that i've gone through. so i've lined up a list of activities that i wanna do. clubbing is one. and as well as the black eyed peas gig. these are things that i rarely do. and thus i've been missing alot of fun. i'm not referring to drugs, smoking and booze. i'm plainly referring to good music, good pals and loads of fun. that's all. i'm still as pure and innocent as before.
as for the men in my life, who needs ya. i've got my girlfriends.
come on, lets rawk.